Elle's struggle

It has been such a wonderful experience to watch Elle these past few months as she is geniunely going through a huge spiritual warfare. A few months ago, she told Jason and I that she was ready to walk down to the front of the church because she was tired of being scared and wanted to let people know that she was a Christian. I was so super excited about it, but when the time came for her to walk down at the end of worship, she wouldn't budge. She said that she just couldn't do it. After that Sunday, we were out of town for two weeks...The first week back, she begged me as we were walking into church if we could just go ahead and go home. Of course, we didn't, but at that moment, I couldn't figure out what was going on. Once we were in the service and worship began, I looked down and she was balling. I asked her what was wrong and she couldn't even talk. She finally said that she could feel God pushing on her. I almost fell over. I told her that she should really listen and think before saying, "no" to Lord. Elle has spent the past few months studying Job and Jonah, and as many other books as she can about the devil. She said that she feels like God is pushing on her and she is scared to say no, but she feels like something is telling her to say no. It really is amazing to watch! I have been prayerful about how to stay out of God's way, but to encourage Elle in this. This morning when I was reading and praying, I really felt like the Spirit was encouraging me to share with Elle how Jason and I came together as a couple. When Jason was 26 years old, he walked down to the front of our little church and professed his faith. I knew him at the time, but not well. I was moved to tears for reasons that I could not explain at the time...Two nights later we went on our first date and the rest is history.
I told Elle that story this morning. I was telling her that I know she is a lot like her daddy. But that her daddy missed a lot of time in a relationship with Christ and he would hate for that to happen to her. She said that she already has a relationship with Christ--she just is too scared to go in front of the church. But, I reminded of her of how much Daddy getting up that day meant to me--and what a witness it was to me and I was already a Christian. That I not only rejoiced that he was joining into my family--but that it reminded me of the wonderful love and draw of Jesus Christ that I was not plugged into at that very moment.
I don't know why I felt like she needed to hear this story and I encouraged her to talk to Jason more about his experiences in church and why it had taken him so long.